I'm feeling down these days because I had two bad coaching/formation experiences. The first was a long 4-hours formation with a teacher who told us things about identity that I think are 99% 90's bullshit. We were seven and I was the only one disagreeing and it made me feel different and excluded that everyone else just went along with it. Instead of acknowledging I was disagreeing she kept coming up with new examples as if I was just too thick to get it the first time. It was humiliating.
She said that we only make friends with people that are like us, and as an example of ppl you would never befriend, she gave fans of soccer, who live and die for soccer. And I said I disagreed, I like to seek out people different from me, and that her example was extreme because even soccer fans have other interests and other discussion topics. People are not that monolithic and if someone like that exists I've never met them. So she asked every student "Yes? No? Maybe I'm weird?".
Every person was like "yes" "yes" "hu-hu", 6 persons like that until it was my turn and I said "No" again, arguing what I said in the previous toot & saying I myself have several friends who are soccer fans and it's never been an issue. She asked around several times until she thought "Maybe that's not a good example, let's say manga fans!" which is an even worse example since I'm a manga fan myself and most of my friends are too, but we talk about so many more things than manga!
Anyway, I let it go and just said hmm for the next half-hour, because I felt exhausted and humiliated. But at the very end, she said that a healthy identity comes from the balance between personal (private) identity and professional identity... And I was like... No, I can't let this one pass! If it was true it would mean students or unemployed people have a less complete identity than people who have a job they like. And I argued again but we paused for lunched and I left and did not come back.
It was 2 weeks ago and I'm still tired and depressed because of it. The other experience was last week I saw a coach in personal branding, and she kinda checked my tweeter and told me I didn't have enough followers (or rather a bad ratio following/followers), and she also told me I can't post the same pictures on all social networks because people get bored, which is weird because I know if I post a picture on tumblr and not on twitter, someone will probably do it for me. I'm very confused now.
So anyway because I posted this long annoying rant I'll post some illustrations I made :
Some alternate versions #utena #art #illustration
Lavender Valley <3 #landscape #illustration #art
Over the years, I've grown very anxious of social media, I know I have to post but sometimes (a lot of the time) it makes my anxiety skyrocket and I don't post anything. I'm just glad I found this mastodon instance, so far all the conversations I've had have been wonderful and positive, and I feel better thanks to all of you. You're all awesome!! ππ
@lores love the colors
@TechieInAK Thanks!! π
@lores this is beautiful.
@Curator Thank you and thank you so much for the boost!! π
@LONKI Thank youuu π
@lores ahhh I love the colours in this